"Things falling apart is a kind of testing and also a kind of healing. We think that the point is to pass the test or to overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of this to happen: room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy.
Everything that occurs is not only usable and workable but is actually the path itself. We can use everything that happens to us as the means for waking up. We can use everything that occurs—whether it’s our conflicting emotions and thoughts or our seemingly outer situation—to show us where we are asleep and how we can wake up completely, utterly, without reservations."
~ Pema Chodron
The image above is the view from the portal in front of this new house. Such a coincidence that it is facing the Pecos Wilderness - the same view from my kitchen window at 313 Santistevan Lane. Soon there will be dark snow clouds swirling around Taos Mountain and the Pecos. Time to order a cord of wood for the stove adjacent to the kitchen. Buying a few extra non-perishables at the grocery store, just in case. My landlord promises to plow the driveway in front of the house whenever it snows.
All my winter lessons in survival were learned when I lived at the horse ranch in Truchas. Moved there on September 17th 1984 - first snow on the mountains that day - pure magic! Packed in our belongings was a brand new medium sized freezer from Sears which we kept in a little shed. The house was a long way out on Llano Quemado next to the Land Grant from the King of Spain. I called this place "suburban Truchas".....as close as you can get to living right under the magnificent Truchas Peaks. It snowed for three days during Christmas that first year...bear tracks near the horse barns - big mountain lion footprints on the front porch! School vacation time - no snow plows for about ten days - we were snowed in!! Brilliant white silence all around...complete solitude....and a well stocked freezer!
Am close as I will ever get to reliving that place and time today in this new house....waking up and making room for the Dream one more time!